“This year… I got to celebrate my husband. I got to watch him hold his son, and play with him. I got to buy cards for him; one from me and one from our son. And I got to make cute little baby crafts that he now has displayed in his office.” Continue reading
You are officially 48 hours old. So I guess, technically, it’s not your birthday anymore.
We are lying in bed at the hospital, in the middle of the night, and I am just staring at you through the dim light I have in the room.
Becoming your mom created a piece of my heart I didn’t even realize I was missing; so thank you for that.
I guess in a way today is my “birth”day, too. It’s the day I gave birth to my new role in life…Mom. I like the sound of that.
I like the way you fit in my arms so naturally and so perfect – like you have always been meant to fit there; like you’re the missing part of a puzzle piece.
I like your soft little whimpers and the way you nuzzle your head against my chest. And I like the way your tiny hand wraps around my finger and holds on as tightly as possible. Like you’re holding on for dear life and asking me to never let go.
The last thing I wrote before you were born was about things I hoped to teach you. This time, I’m telling you don’t worry; I’m not letting go.
I’ll give you space and freedom to explore and fail, but I’ll always be here. To help you back up. To help you find the lesson. To show you how to keep going.
That’s my birthday present to you. Never letting go.
I’ve been awake for the last three hours. That happens a lot these days; being awake. But, I’m not really complaining. I’m tired and uncomfortable, but that’s okay.
It’s okay because I know that all of the sleepless nights and backaches (and swollen feet) are going to be worth it.
Currently, I’m laying in bed feeling you move around. It’s such an amazing feeling; odd, but amazing. I’ve been in awe of you since I found out you existed. Since I learned that your father and I created a miracle from scratch. You are such a blessing and an answered prayer. And in 12 days, you’ll be here and I’ll get to meet you face to face.
I wanted to take a moment to let you know how loved you are. How happy I was when I found out you were coming. How overjoyed your dad was when I got to tell him our family was growing. How your grandparents screamed with joy when they learned they were getting a(nother) grandchild. How excited all of your cousins are for a new cousin to play with. And how happy all of our friends were when we told them that you were coming. You are so loved, Son.
I want to tell you those things, because I know that sometimes, the days will be really long and we’ll call those “bad days.” There will be days where we just won’t know how to communicate with each other, and we’ll both cry; probably a lot. I know that when we take you home from the hospital they don’t send us with an instruction book on what to do with a new person. And that means we’ll just have to make things up as we go.
Which means I’ll have to be very patient, something I struggle with right now. But please know that I am trying. But, I’m going to fail. Probably everyday. But, I’ll try again and again and again to make you happy. To make sure you’re healthy. To ensure that you have everything you need, and some of the things you want.
Your Dad is going to teach you how to do things; things like take care of the yard, and how to fish. He’s going to teach you the meaning of hard work and why it’s important. He’ll teach you how to play baseball, and my heart will swell and I’ll probably cry. He’ll show you so much love and patience and that will help me be more patient, too.
I hope to teach you that kindness, compassion and empathy are not bad things. In fact, they are the greatest tools you can possess and will make you stronger than anything you’ll ever face. I hope that I teach you that being silly isn’t a bad thing, and that life is a beautiful miracle worth celebrating every day. Even the days that are yucky have good moments, if you remember to look for them.
Most of all, I hope that you always know how loved you already are. How loved you were before you were even created and how loved you will always be. If I can show you that, then I will know that I have succeeded in this world as a person, but more importantly as the person chosen to be your mom.
Life on the other side | “we offered comfort to each other and continued to share our stories. And then, life just continued. Because that’s what happens. Life just continues.” Continue reading
“I stood next to my sister and her friend, dancing in my cowgirl boots and singing right along and it dawned on me that maybe I didn’t dislike that small town after all.” Continue reading
Before we left for St. Louis on Friday for the Tiemann Wedding on Saturday, May 18th we mailed out all of our invitations! It was such an exciting feeling to have that daunting task checked off our to do list. It was so relieving to be able to kick back and enjoy myself for a weekend without stressing about our wedding and get to really enjoy Dan and Danielle’s – which was GORGEOUS, by the way.
As exciting as it was to get the invitations mailed out, I did not anticipate how exciting it would be to start receiving responses! OMG, you guys, it is AWESOME! I love coming home and checking the mailbox and seeing little response envelopes inside. What I love even more is opening those envelopes and finding cards that say ‘Accepts with pleasure.’ We have received five in the last two days and all of them said yes. I can’t even begin to explain how much it means that people truly want to be a part of this day. Blessed comes to mind.
What might be even more exciting, if that’s possible, is the fact that we have our engagement session booked with our A.MAZE.ING photographer, Dustin. I can’t even tell you how awesome this guy is – you’ll just have to wait and see the photos.
We also finalized all of the details for the rehearsal dinner, which will be at Fiorella’s Jack Stack BBQ’s Freight House location. This place is stupid delicious and I am looking forward to our out of town guests experiencing it.
AND the wedding is going social! The wedding has its own hashtag, #SuddrethWedding, its very own Twitter account (@SuddrethWedding), and it even has its own Facebook page, Suddreth Wedding! If you want to follow along with all of the excitement there are so many ways to connect with us. And if you use Instagram, you can find us there as well with the handle, you guessed it, Suddreth Wedding. As the wedding gets closer and people begin taking and posting photos, tweets, etc be sure to use the #SuddrethWedding hashtag so we can follow and see all of your lovely posts!
Finally, there is still a more time to vote for your choice in the Father/Daughter Dance survey – the results are really close, so make sure you get your vote in and your favorite song wins!
Phew, that was a TON of information. I was going to work on program designs, but I think I’ll have a glass of wine and catch up Grey’s Anatomy instead!
Last week was our first pre-marriage class at our church. We were not really sure what to expect, but one of our ministers recommended we go to this class, so we did. I think we were both pleasantly surprised by how the class went. Since Brett and I have been together for a while we weren’t sure what we would really get out of the class, but there were some great talking points brought up in the class, and it gave us an opportunity to really talk. It also gave us a chance to ask how to handle the fact that we see each other 24/7 since we live together, work together, and carpool to work. We are rarely apart. The class leaders gave us some good advice and seemed pleased that we were able to recognize that was something we should be aware of and that we should not feel bad to ask one another for some space if we need it. All in all, I think we both got a lot out of the class and are glad that we went.
Also last week we designed our save the date cards. They came in this week and we are so thrilled with how they turned out. We have already mailed them out, so be checking your mail boxes for them.
While we were designing our Save the Dates, we went ahead and designed, ordered, and purchased over invitations, reception cards, RSVP cards, and thank you notes. When we were going through everything, of course I started to cry. Having everything in my hands just made this whole thing so much more real.
Sitting down together and addressing our save the date cards was actually really fun and while it was a lot of work, we did not mind at all. It made us realize how blessed we are to have so many wonderful people in our lives that we want to celebrate with!
We have also completed all of our registries, so be sure to check out The Registries page for details.
Also, we have set aside a block of rooms at the Drury Inn & Suites located off of I-35 and Shawnee Mission Parkway. Further information about how to book a room using the group rate can be found by visiting Places to Stay, Things to do. This page will also help you with things to do while you are in town if you decide you want to explore the city Brett and I call home.
Things are really moving along nicely and coming together as planned. We have a photographer who are just thrilled will be a part of our day! Thanks, Dustin!
We are meeting with the baker this week to discuss cake options and we have been scouting venues for the rehearsal dinner as well as looking at places to cater the reception.
Finally, we have been checking, and checking, and checking, and checking on airfare to Jamaica. One of the disadvantages of living in the middle of the country is that you are rarely able to fly direct to anywhere AND all of the flights are about eleventy billion dollars. So, in the fall we signed up for a credit card that earns miles through one of the airlines thinking that we would be able to earn plenty of miles between when we signed up when we booked the flights to at least earn one free ticket. Well, technically we probably did because we have tens of thousands of miles, but of course we can’t use them because of restrictions and blah blah blah. So, Brett being the clever and resourceful man that he is talked to a bunch of different airline representatives and was able to figure out the best way to get to Jamaica. And boy did he! Turns out we will be flying all the way to Jamaica sitting in FIRST CLASS! I am so. excited. I have never even flown in business class, so I am excited to experience the luxuriousness that comes with this.
So, things are coming together quite well and we are so excited.
160 days and counting……
There’s not a lot of news as far as details go, but some of the other pages have been updated, so be sure to check them out! Under ‘Meet Our Parents,’ the Bride’s parents have been added in; I need to track down some pictures and a little bio for the Groom’s parents. And under ‘The Details,’ Honeymoon has been updated, so be sure to check them out.
If you haven’t clicked through the other pages/tabs/links whatever you want to call them, be sure you do, as more information will be appearing as the weeks and months continue.
Thank you so much for sharing our journey – we are truly blessed.